Chapter 5

Meeting Xavier's eyes that looked like they wanted to devour me, I was too lazy to defend myself.

Xavier shot me a vicious glare, then nervously helped Molly up.

"Are you okay?"

Molly shook her head fearfully. "I'm fine. I just don't know why Lily..."

Before she could finish, Molly began crying pitifully.

Xavier looked at me again. I simply said flatly, "I'll leave once I've packed my things."

"Apologize."

Xavier's face was grim, his hand gripping my wrist tightly.

In that moment, I read one message in Xavier's eyes: if I didn't apologize, I would definitely regret it.

"Xavier, because of you, I was fired from the hospital. Because of you, my parents were kicked out of the nursing home. Because of you, I'm now a whore. Because of you, I've been insulted. And now, because of a mistress's few words, you want me to apologize?"

I looked at Xavier aggressively.

I wanted to know if this man truly had no heart.

The facts proved that when a man doesn't love you anymore, anything you say is worthless.

"What happened to you is what you deserve. What does it have to do with me? Stop deflecting. Apologize to Molly right now, or else..."

"Or else what?" I stared at Xavier defiantly.

He panicked for a moment, frowning and saying softly, "Why do you have to be so difficult? You know Molly is still young. Why are you arguing with her? No one can shake your position. Can't you just behave?"

I really couldn't understand Xavier. If he didn't love me anymore, why not let go?

From the first time Xavier cheated with an assistant, I'd proposed divorce.

Time after time, Xavier always refused.

He even targeted me because I wanted a divorce.

Everyone who was good to me had been targeted.

So that now, only my parents still stood on my side.

And now they were gone too. Xavier had no one left to threaten me with.

"Xavier, in this house, it's either me or her."

"Ha, how arrogant. You really think my son can't live without you. My son just pities you."

"A woman like you who's been used by others and can't even have children—our Xavier family doesn't want you." Eleanor's words stabbed into my chest like knives.

"So Lily is targeting me because I'm pregnant and you can't conceive?"

Molly's one sentence made my face change dramatically.

"Lily, why pretend you don't know? You're a doctor. Couldn't you tell at a glance?"

I ignored Molly, only looking at Xavier. "Answer me. Is she pregnant?"

"Yes."

"So you're keeping this child?"

"Yes."

Xavier answered firmly, even worrying I might harm Molly, quickly shielding her behind him.

Watching the Xavier family on high alert, I couldn't help but laugh.

But as I laughed, tears came.

For myself, and for my unborn child.

That was my first child, and Xavier's first child too.

But when he learned of the pregnancy, he wasn't happy at all. Instead, he was troubled.

Later he told me, "Lily, you know I grew up without a father. I'm not ready yet. I don't think we're suited to have a child right now."

I knew very well that my body conceiving a child was extremely difficult.

So I explained to Xavier that I could take good care of the child.

But he acted tormented every day, as if he would die if I gave birth to this child.

When a colleague learned I was going to have an abortion, she was shocked. "Dr. Lily, you know very well that this might..."

I didn't let her finish, because I knew she was right.

But I couldn't take the risk. I couldn't let Xavier suffer.

In the end, I had a miscarriage.

And that man who said he'd never want children for the rest of his life was now carefully cherishing his mistress and her child.

Tears fell uncontrollably. "Xavier, back then our..."

"Enough, Lily. Some things I won't mention, so don't bring them up yourself. If you don't find it shameful, I find it disgusting!"

Xavier glanced at me with disgust. I was instantly petrified.

What did that mean?

Was he—was he suspecting me?

My chest hurt, but I still asked, "So back then it wasn't that you didn't want children—you didn't want my child?"

"Exactly. You're dirty." Eleanor answered first, and Xavier didn't deny it.

In that moment, I felt like a joke.

I laughed bitterly at myself, throwing a document at Xavier. "Take a good look. I hope you never regret your decisions for the rest of your life."

Xavier dismissively glanced at the document. With just one look, his expression changed drastically. "This is impossible..."